'legit' is the word.

It is true. Everyone keeps saying the word 'legit' these days, making an originally lame-slash-nerdy word (aka legitimate) sounds so awesomely cool.

Anyway, there were a couple of interesting stuff going on actually all semester. i have no idea why i didnt write it down on this lovely piece of blog. kelak laa. tido lok ;p

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illness in moderation

i feel sick and nauseous and tired.

how long does it take for a guy to call? or will he never call?

if im gonna be distracted all day long by this annoying feeling, i might as well give up on trying to find a boyfriend.

my ever-easy brain has no capacity for this complexity.

and this is not even the preliminary stage yet.

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impossible. and i want to kill someone.

recently, im broke. and feeling tired. and have a new sense of drama.

broke, as in i haven't got my allowance yet. and i have to pay my rent. and pay for my bounced check. and buy new books. and pay for the broken car when afif & i knocked a deer last saturday. i've never been more broke it's actually hilarious. my new term starts in less than a week, for winchester's sake! shell, whats wrong?!

feeling tired, as in shell has made it a mandate for scholars to maintain a second upper degree. then shell assumed that a second upper degree is 3.5 & above! assumption occurs as the american system doesnt have a gpa standard. which i find weird, but nevertheless wth dude~ how am i gonna achieve that? when have you looked at my face and thought im smart? in my case, judge a book by its cover!

have a new sense of drama, as in my life is so fucked-up... lol obviously it is not yet that fucked up. but it gives such an overwhelming feeling of satisfaction to just say that 5-word sentence. "my life is so fucked up...". another favorite phrase of mine these days is "FUBAR" which technically stands for 'Fucked Up Beyond All Repair/Relief'. it beats cursing, & better still, it doesnt sound like you're cursing. just simply saying 'oh, im so fubar' or 'dang, that girl's life is fubar' or 'that car* is definitely fubar' is oh so delightful. tahahaha am i such an easy thing to amuse.

p/s the car refers to this idiot who left his gorgeous blue convertible roofless at the parking space. which was pretty awesome until it started to rain. tahahah idjit!

however, a silver lining in the cloud. a shell correspondence emailed hani saying that they had established that the limit for a second upper is 3.0 & above. yay! finally someone sensible.

but the allowance haven't arrive yet. so yeah, my life's fubar.

I love NOLA

after weeks of waiting for our summer allowance, it unexpectedly arrived! *at least for ali & i*

so when sai kit proposed a trip to New Orleans, Louisana aka NOLA, i jumped to it! 

unfortunately, ali couldnt join bcos she had to study for her upcoming engineering exam. it was the first time the 3 of us were separated we were devastated.

result : spent almost the whole driving journey from houston to nola talking to ali on the phone. 

anyway. we reached nola around midnight, and so despite our overwhelming enthusiasm for creole and cajun food, spent our first nola meal at iHop.

p/s the next day, i made up for it by trying alligator sausage. yummy!

the next day, we started our journey! the crew includes mua, hani, ain, sai & doug.

we kinda walked randomly around the city, passing through streetshops, art galleries, antique stores, and voodoo stations. nola was so unique i was filled with excitement to the brink!

*pierrot?*

another joy in nola is that hani & i get to 'clean our eyes' as much as we want. for some reason, every hot guy in america decided to go to nola for that weekend. lol not lying.

we even saw a street magician, who was really entertaining and funny, despite his occasional awkward racist remark. i ddnt mind at all, but you know, some of the ang mohs, humorless people.

i even got my 'fortune' read by a warm gypsy. 

 

i was pretty sceptical because analysis tend to be pretty general. but she took one look at me and confidently said "dear, you gotta learn how to manage your money!". which, if you dont already know me, hits right at the spot. & there were pretty accurate things taht she said too. plus, she was such a nice friendly dear lady. cant help trusting those kinds. ;p

then, we decided to go for this Haunted Ghost Tour. or Haunted History Ghost Tour, to be more accurate. only noticed the word 'History' after i caught myself sleeping during the tour.

our tour guide was this sweaty buff guy who couldnt scare you for shxt! by the end of the tour, i was so tempted to leave him in a malay cemetary at night just for fun. for wasting my time. pendek kata, if you're going to nola, dont ever go on these haunted ghost tours.

the only kinda-scary part was the Andrew Jackson hotel where a woman apparently hung herself in one of the rooms due to her husband's infidelity. after her death, couples who *ehem ehem* in the hotel will find pictures of them in the middle of their 'activity', the pictures are set in an angle that can only be taken from above (aka the ceiling).

anyhoo~ after that, we spent an evening in bourbon street. during the day, it was this quiet, typical nola street.

at night, it got crazy. people sprouting up from everywhere. never seen more clubs and bars alight in my life. it was very exciting!

nevertheless we got home tired. lol

the next day, before heading bk home to texas, we stopped by oak alley plantation. 

i was adamant about stopping by here. and gawd, im so thankful i did!

okay, onestly, the reason why i wanted to go is because im a major movie buff, and this plantation was one of the setting for 'The Interview with the Vampire" movie starring Brad Pitt, Tom Cruise and Kirsten Dunst.

the plantation was so hauntingly beautiful. it's indescribable.

and i admit, i  may have camwhore-d a bit too much lol

^ this was my fave pic though, bcos hani said this pic was scary as i kinda look like i was talking to someone beside me that couldnt be captured on camera. aka *ehem ehem* ^

finally we had to leave. we were bummed cos nola's awesome!

i will, definitely without a doubt, go to nola again!

ironic.

not referring to the act of using a flat, hot, possibly dangerous apparatus (aka the iron) to smoothen out the creases on a crumpled shirt. nor referring to anything that epitomizes the downey-jr superhero, iron man.

duh.

and more specifically, what was i talking about?

anyway, it's been long since i wrote my last post. & funny, since finally i had something worthwhile to blog about. sigh~

so ma gonna list it out here so i can remember

• went to new orleans
• got a's for my summer class. finally!
• shell's impossible requirement
• unexpected arrival of allowance
• a new love for sushi. becoming a more complete embodiment of a japan maniac
• unhealthy and overwhelming obsession for CW's supernatural
• chemical plant fire in college station
• new malaysian kids arriving in texas a&m!
• deecee-philly trip
• my 2nd rock concert! arghh

yep! lets start!

breaking down the tears~

oh i miss malaysia so much...

i cant stand it when my friends tell me they miss me. coz i miss them so much so terribly.

the thing i love most about school is when you come to class and start the day by talking about any crap you can think about.

music, anime, movies, boys, ghosts... anything crappy and uneducational.

and in kml, i can just hop to any rooms in the dorm and talk to my friends about basically anything. everything was light-beat and relaxing.

we would dance suju's dont don in one room, then sing dbsk's timeless in another. talk about makino*doumyouji with a group of friend, and then mizuki*nakatsu with the rest.

that was my sanctuary, my heaven. everything perfect there.

here, everyday is like a struggle. i cant find my comfort zone. the only sanctuary i can get is when i am alone. and i dont want that.

i became quiet. i dont know what to say. i became apathetic and boring.

i've never felt more insecure.

now im thinking, is everything here worth it?

this might be my biggest bout of homesickness.

uh'oh

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burst of randomness

why am i so unsettled?

why am i such a fickle vast of shallowness?

but the puppy eyes, puppy smile

just let me melt, alright?

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