of comics and the big bang in the heart...

'legit' is the word.

2009-11-10T14:37:00.002-06:00

It is true. Everyone keeps saying the word 'legit' these days, making an originally lame-slash-nerdy word (aka legitimate) sounds so awesomely cool.

Anyway, there were a couple of interesting stuff going on actually all semester. i have no idea why i didnt write it down on this lovely piece of blog. kelak laa. tido lok ;p

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illness in moderation

2009-09-08T00:26:00.003-05:00

i feel sick and nauseous and tired.

how long does it take for a guy to call? or will he never call?

if im gonna be distracted all day long by this annoying feeling, i might as well give up on trying to find a boyfriend.

my ever-easy brain has no capacity for this complexity.

and this is not even the preliminary stage yet.

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impossible. and i want to kill someone.

2009-08-26T01:34:00.002-05:00

recently, im broke. and feeling tired. and have a new sense of drama.

broke, as in i haven't got my allowance yet. and i have to pay my rent. and pay for my bounced check. and buy new books. and pay for the broken car when afif & i knocked a deer last saturday. i've never been more broke it's actually hilarious. my new term starts in less than a week, for winchester's sake! shell, whats wrong?!

feeling tired, as in shell has made it a mandate for scholars to maintain a second upper degree. then shell assumed that a second upper degree is 3.5 & above! assumption occurs as the american system doesnt have a gpa standard. which i find weird, but nevertheless wth dude~ how am i gonna achieve that? when have you looked at my face and thought im smart? in my case, judge a book by its cover!

have a new sense of drama, as in my life is so fucked-up... lol obviously it is not yet that fucked up. but it gives such an overwhelming feeling of satisfaction to just say that 5-word sentence. "my life is so fucked up...". another favorite phrase of mine these days is "FUBAR" which technically stands for 'Fucked Up Beyond All Repair/Relief'. it beats cursing, & better still, it doesnt sound like you're cursing. just simply saying 'oh, im so fubar' or 'dang, that girl's life is fubar' or 'that car* is definitely fubar' is oh so delightful. tahahaha am i such an easy thing to amuse.

p/s the car refers to this idiot who left his gorgeous blue convertible roofless at the parking space. which was pretty awesome until it started to rain. tahahah idjit!

however, a silver lining in the cloud. a shell correspondence emailed hani saying that they had established that the limit for a second upper is 3.0 & above. yay! finally someone sensible.

but the allowance haven't arrive yet. so yeah, my life's fubar.

I love NOLA

2009-08-25T00:28:00.011-05:00

after weeks of waiting for our summer allowance, it unexpectedly arrived! *at least for ali & i*

so when sai kit proposed a trip to New Orleans, Louisana aka NOLA, i jumped to it!

unfortunately, ali couldnt join bcos she had to study for her upcoming engineering exam. it was the first time the 3 of us were separated we were devastated.

result : spent almost the whole driving journey from houston to nola talking to ali on the phone.

anyway. we reached nola around midnight, and so despite our overwhelming enthusiasm for creole and cajun food, spent our first nola meal at iHop.

p/s the next day, i made up for it by trying alligator sausage. yummy!

the next day, we started our journey! the crew includes mua, hani, ain, sai & doug.

we kinda walked randomly around the city, passing through streetshops, art galleries, antique stores, and voodoo stations. nola was so unique i was filled with excitement to the brink!

*pierrot?*

another joy in nola is that hani & i get to 'clean our eyes' as much as we want. for some reason, every hot guy in america decided to go to nola for that weekend. lol not lying.

we even saw a street magician, who was really entertaining and funny, despite his occasional awkward racist remark. i ddnt mind at all, but you know, some of the ang mohs, humorless people.

i even got my 'fortune' read by a warm gypsy.

i was pretty sceptical because analysis tend to be pretty general. but she took one look at me and confidently said "dear, you gotta learn how to manage your money!". which, if you dont already know me, hits right at the spot. & there were pretty accurate things taht she said too. plus, she was such a nice friendly dear lady. cant help trusting those kinds. ;p

then, we decided to go for this Haunted Ghost Tour. or Haunted History Ghost Tour, to be more accurate. only noticed the word 'History' after i caught myself sleeping during the tour.

our tour guide was this sweaty buff guy who couldnt scare you for shxt! by the end of the tour, i was so tempted to leave him in a malay cemetary at night just for fun. for wasting my time. pendek kata, if you're going to nola, dont ever go on these haunted ghost tours.

the only kinda-scary part was the Andrew Jackson hotel where a woman apparently hung herself in one of the rooms due to her husband's infidelity. after her death, couples who *ehem ehem* in the hotel will find pictures of them in the middle of their 'activity', the pictures are set in an angle that can only be taken from above (aka the ceiling).

anyhoo~ after that, we spent an evening in bourbon street. during the day, it was this quiet, typical nola street.

at night, it got crazy. people sprouting up from everywhere. never seen more clubs and bars alight in my life. it was very exciting!

nevertheless we got home tired. lol

the next day, before heading bk home to texas, we stopped by oak alley plantation.

i was adamant about stopping by here. and gawd, im so thankful i did!

okay, onestly, the reason why i wanted to go is because im a major movie buff, and this plantation was one of the setting for 'The Interview with the Vampire" movie starring Brad Pitt, Tom Cruise and Kirsten Dunst.

the plantation was so hauntingly beautiful. it's indescribable.

and i admit, i may have camwhore-d a bit too much lol

^ this was my fave pic though, bcos hani said this pic was scary as i kinda look like i was talking to someone beside me that couldnt be captured on camera. aka *ehem ehem* ^

finally we had to leave. we were bummed cos nola's awesome!

i will, definitely without a doubt, go to nola again!

ironic.

2009-08-25T00:14:00.002-05:00

not referring to the act of using a flat, hot, possibly dangerous apparatus (aka the iron) to smoothen out the creases on a crumpled shirt. nor referring to anything that epitomizes the downey-jr superhero, iron man.

duh.

and more specifically, what was i talking about?

anyway, it's been long since i wrote my last post. & funny, since finally i had something worthwhile to blog about. sigh~

so ma gonna list it out here so i can remember

went to new orleans
got a's for my summer class. finally!
shell's impossible requirement
unexpected arrival of allowance
a new love for sushi. becoming a more complete embodiment of a japan maniac
unhealthy and overwhelming obsession for CW's supernatural
chemical plant fire in college station
new malaysian kids arriving in texas a&m!
deecee-philly trip
my 2nd rock concert! arghh

yep! lets start!

breaking down the tears~

2009-07-12T01:54:00.003-05:00

oh i miss malaysia so much...

i cant stand it when my friends tell me they miss me. coz i miss them so much so terribly.

the thing i love most about school is when you come to class and start the day by talking about any crap you can think about.

music, anime, movies, boys, ghosts... anything crappy and uneducational.

and in kml, i can just hop to any rooms in the dorm and talk to my friends about basically anything. everything was light-beat and relaxing.

we would dance suju's dont don in one room, then sing dbsk's timeless in another. talk about makino*doumyouji with a group of friend, and then mizuki*nakatsu with the rest.

that was my sanctuary, my heaven. everything perfect there.

here, everyday is like a struggle. i cant find my comfort zone. the only sanctuary i can get is when i am alone. and i dont want that.

i became quiet. i dont know what to say. i became apathetic and boring.

i've never felt more insecure.

now im thinking, is everything here worth it?

this might be my biggest bout of homesickness.

uh'oh

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burst of randomness

2009-07-08T03:35:00.003-05:00

why am i so unsettled?

why am i such a fickle vast of shallowness?

but the puppy eyes, puppy smile

just let me melt, alright?

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burn LOL

2009-07-08T03:28:00.004-05:00

this one is better!

ROR

asian version of LOL

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bowling virgin no more!

2009-07-08T00:53:00.009-05:00

today i went bowling for the first time!

yay, im so happy!

i know i know. where did i live all my life, a cave? honestly i dont know even know why i never tried bowling. well finally i did!

hani's friend tommy invited her to go bowling with him & a couple of his friends. so i tagged along.

*to my advantage hani gets a lot of guys' attentions ;D *

we (as in tommy, his younger bro james, hani & me) went to Grand Station at Bryan, where they had bowling alleys, laser tags, mini golf place, and (to my great delight) a game arcade!!!

ooo so exciting!

being a first-timer, obviously i SUCK big time.

the bowling first timer XD

hani

brother act - tommy & james

even hani, who claimed she doesnt know how to play it, did so much better than me. when others score around 60, 70, my score was 20-ish. it was so urghh~ oh well, im there for comic relief =D since it was about to close, we ddnt get to spend much time in the arcade =<

but the boys still get to play the dance2 revolution game. & they were really good! wow!

this machine is everywhere! dang, im so proud of japan. remember para para?

*para para was one of my nicknames too XD*

just had to camwhore. im sorry~

all & all a fun experience.

yeah, a bowling virgin no more!

btw, there's a spa in miri with this slogan

"Virgin No More"

only one thing i can say.

'WTF'

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idiosyncrasy

2009-07-08T00:48:00.001-05:00

america's not doing well for me.

i burp

i gulp my drinks

my stomach growls

my food falls down all the time

this is not good.

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i wish hani a happy happy birthday!

2009-07-05T01:35:00.005-05:00

yeah. hani finally turned 19 -for the second time-

since her bday was on the 4th of july (independence day yo!), so we decided to hv her bday dinner on friday nite. at olive garden. the trio plus douglas & sai kit.

love the desserts!

*& come to think of it, why are desserts such a girl's thing? guys dont seem to appreciate desserts... hmm*

then we took a few shots, have merry times together with some typical texan melodies *as in country*, and got totally swayed. haha

~inseparable~

happy birthday dearest hani! i hope you had fun.

we love you to bits!

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ibrahim lincoln.

2009-07-01T15:26:00.003-05:00

no?

apparently that will be abraham lincoln's name if converted to malaysian. come to think of it, i find malaysian history class quite crappy. just because.

i admire lincoln as a great man. yes, he's nice with the whole emancipation act and stuff. but i admire him most because he is wise beyond his peers. i would like to be even a hundreth of what he is, but i doubt i will ever be.

plus found this little short link about lincoln that i found very endearing.

story of lincoln's beard

im feeling pretty bitter-sad now that the us history class has finally ended. i've learnt so much from it.

it sounds awfully awfully lame, but i really like it.

like it so much that hani, lis & i can make lame jokes about history. like

"yeah, u bully me later i tomahawked you like what Half-King did to Jumonville"

"eyh, iboh gaduh ba, later can ask Henry Clay to polah compromise..."

i know, you're thinking, wht the eff? are those jokes? but apparently, yeah, we laughed to that.

damn. this place destroys my humour.

anyway, i chose blogging over sleeping rite now?! whats wrong with me?!

g'nite!

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incumbent

2009-06-29T19:55:00.009-05:00

found an interesting word today. it made me think of 'imbecile'. haha. let's google what it means.

based on dictionary.com, it refers to

"the holder of an office"

okay, oops. no, it does not mean or imply the word imbecile. and now that i know the definition, it appears to be a boring word.

yawwwwnnn

helped sai kit pack his stuff just now. with all his things in the big moving van.

while i was carrying those things, lis rilek alu minum milo padah

"bibik, angkat yer barang cepat2... jangan malas"

"ya bu, tolong permisi passport gue. gue kena kejaran polisi tengah gue lari masuk sempadan semalam bu."

bah, my indon so lousy la.

anyway, sai kit will be our new neighbour, yay! & he has a car, yay!

& officially i am living in a store. in this small apartment, we have my thing, hani's, lis', afif's, faiz's, astri's, tanjung's and now sai kit's. still waiting for darick's and douglas' things agik.

lol

these guys are really bullying us.

haha

NYway, im freaked out about tomorrow's essay! it's based on father abe, but i really dont know what to write about him... hmm~

& yeah, it was really cool today when this girl came to hani, lis & i, & asked

"are you guys malaysians?

cos i've heard you guys speaking malay.

i'm malaysian too."

& we were like, CooL! such a small world, this is.

i bid to all malaysians, please appreciate the malay language. because when you are out of malaysia, the malay language is a great way for you to distinguish who is of your country and who is not. our language is really very unique.

and also it's the best way for you to kritik orang antarabangsa without them tahu apa dipadah kawu ya.

lol

tipu la you go overseas never do this

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i hate weekends

2009-06-28T16:48:00.003-05:00

... well basically thats it.

cant go out and do anything today since im going to hv exams on tuesday & wednesday. but it doesnt mean im studying.

*this post's existence proves my point*

i wanna go travelling!

damn no-summer-allowance. unfortunately i ddnt know that we wont be having any allowance for summer. & i have to pay the house rent. so screwed up.

i wanna go travelling!

but im broke! and bankrupt! where will i find the money?! sell myself?!

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oh WOW

2009-06-27T00:15:00.006-05:00

today has some highlites =)

finally, i have a little, small, miniscule fragment of life.

spent some time in the REC today. & im beginning to really love the pool. & the friendly lifeguards :)

got some really nice Shivers ice cone. ice cones, me likey!

went to a pool party in ZZ Islander, this new apartment complex which we stumbled upon while we were randomly house-hunting. yeah we were out of place, especially me with my jeans & stuff...

went to watch Transformers : Revenge of the Fallen,which is effing awesomeee! i came out from the cinema with such an overwhelming feeling. it was good, i tell you.

i love shia labeouf. but then again, who wouldnt fall for a guy who's really smart & runs around trying to save both robots and the whole entire humankind?

and also, one who is good enough to get megan fox? ;p

what do you get when you cross robots & humans?

robots + humans = romans

apparently caesar's a cyborg.

lame joke, i know. haha.

then, stuffed myself at TGI Fridays. on a Friday night. how original.

after a quick HEB grocery shopping, im back home. & dying from boredom again. someone save me now!

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omelettes and oreos

2009-06-24T20:50:00.006-05:00

... for my abyss-like stomach. gah.

anyway, wanted to share a few random summer piccies i took.

yeah yeah. i admit i took alot of pictures of squirrels. cos im so sakai. & apparently, even squirrels are more friendly during the summer.

cant wait to go back to Great Wall, this Chinese buffet which only charges 9 dollars for -let's see- sushi, a tons variety of chicken (kung pao, general tso), rice, noodle, soup, jello, fish, vege, crackers, fruits, desserts, & yes ice creams! & in those DIY ice cream machines. i wanna get me one of those machines!

well it was kinda funny when we thought this dog was chasing us, instead it ran to this longkang cum river to escape the summer heat. yes, texan summer is hot. i cannot say it enough. especially when we'll be facing 100+ Fahrenheit (aka 39 Celcius) days from now on. & unfortunately, summer has just started... ;O

apparently, summer means Camp Camp Camp too. stumbled upon swimming camps & cheerleading camps. cant help curi2 ambik this gambar.

one of the things which made me love texas is that it's so green! i remembered last spring, trees in the northern states like michigan were still browning. but in texas, everything was already all green & flowering! so beautiful =)

pic of hani & lis braving the summer heat with the assistance of their colored umbrellas. & coming here, i realized only asians wear umbrella in the hot sun. haha, an overstatement of course. but it's so rare to see people using an umbrella to cover from the sun here. it is so rare that you feel almost embarrased to use it, and nearly willing to kiss your fair skin goodbye. =(

this college also has a tradition called pond-hopping. where you're supposed to hop into the ponds around the campus at least once before you leave the college. which i will elaborate once i've done. which i will! cant wait~

kih kih kih. well, this is not a summer pic. i was just browsing through old pics (one of my many efforts to procrastinate), and found this pic, which i adore. we took this pic in front of the Millenium Egg, and had the best of funs taking crazy pics in front of it! one of my fave spring moments =D

*this pic also makes me miss the boys. which i will never ever ever admit to them. screw you, boys*

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oblivion.

2009-06-24T20:27:00.004-05:00

meaning 'the state of being completely forgotten or unknown'. as in 'i am oblivious as to how the word oblivion relates to this post. apparently it s a mystery.

anyway it saddens me that due to me taking only one summer class, i hvent been able to meet any new people.

but i did have a random discourse with this guy, who suddenly out of nowhere asked 'do you hv a brother?'. before this, i was almost oblivious of the southern hospitality that i had admired so much. now i cant wait for fall semester.

went to the pool again

annoyingly, it seemed like out of the blue, all the hottest guys in college station suddenly decided to go for a swin today. i kid you not & if i were to exaggerate one bit, i will starve myself for a decade.
2nd annoyingly, i was playing around in the south side of the pool & the only lifeguard was at the north part. diving around, fooling around, & suddenly i heard a whistle. the lifeguard (who was also a nice sight) called 'Maam, can you swim closer here?". just so he can look out for me. oh M G. he looked at me like he was scared i'll drown or something~ im not a baby!

hmm...

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oh pucker! at least it's interesting today...

2009-06-24T19:58:00.006-05:00

what a stupid title. i dont even know what pucker means.

anyway,

at least i find yesterday & today a fairly interesting day. unlike the other redundant days filled solely with screams of "aaaah so HOT! ci**i texan summer!"

well, in short, yesterday was interesting bcos

1) we got left by the bus

& by that statement, i meant to say "Cilaka! i had to walk in this frickkin hot summer!". & it's not like the bus left us bcos we were late. hani & i were waiting for the bus (which came late btw). as the bus arrived, stopped & opened the door, we were walking towards it. a few guys came into the bus, and just as we were standing in front of the bus entrance, it Closed! & just went off. We were right in front of the entrance, for bus-driver's sake! grrr~

2) i got scared of the big bad pool

well, the low pool was closed for this high-school swimming camp. so the only pool open was the diving pool. frickkin scared me to death! 18 ft tall!

but then again, the low pool was about 8 ft, which means my leg had a higher possiblity of turning green than reaching the floor of the pool, so i jumped straight in that 18 ft pool!

it was alrite in the end. =)

3) squirrels arent innocent either

in that crazy hot summer day, i had to walk to history class with lis. then, i saw a couple of squirrels quarreling, wrestling each other in the middle of the pathway. h'ever as we got closer...

'wait, is that what i think it is..?'

apparently squirrels are exhibitionists too in the making-babies process.

it's so wrong to watch an animal porn during a hot hot summer day arrrgh!

you wonder why this is on my list of interesting events? because im a kid. & this amuses me so much that i have to constantly tell myself to grow up.

4) we went on an adventure... not really.

after class, hani lis i decided to go to the mall to buy some clothes for the friday event YAY.

im basically pokai, so i tried to limit my purchase. made a list of things to buy

small towel
hair conditioner
umbrella - for the annoyingly shining summer sun
singlets

instead i bought

hair scarf
earrings
singlets
winter sweater
SONIC's chicken wrap - yummie~

notice that the only purchase that was on the list was my singlets. why do women always shop like this?!!

p/s & that sweater was totally worth it! it's beautiful & gorgeous & half-price! =p

5) i finally watched pearl harbour *the movie* from start to finish

well, yeah, thats basically it. & josh hartnett. *wink wink*

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onto change only does consistency applies

2009-06-21T21:45:00.003-05:00

i am a kid

opiniated in every thing

i have an inkling

those thought will eventually be

struck down

down

by the bouts of reality

yes.

but i am not afraid.

oranges and apples and irony

2009-06-20T20:25:00.002-05:00

summer, screw me over.

i talk to my blanket

hani talks to herself

lis screams at her laptop

scary psycho house

we live in it

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oh a god descended!!!

2009-06-20T19:50:00.008-05:00

im so in love with edward norton i want to die

drowning in the sea of his eyes!

(oh gawd, if i was a boy i'd be a playboy of cliche pick up lines)

"another one of your husband ah pajell?" said lis. cis.

but he is haaaawwwwt!

he can play sweet innocent choir boy 'i, i.. i dont kill, kill nobody, sir..'

& in a split second, BAM! he hits you with a machete with that piercing pure evil eyes.

i cant choose between his innocent sweet smile - or his angry glinting eyes.

& he can speak japanese! awwwu how cool is that?!

-edward norton in illusionist, the painted veil, primal fear-

gotta watch more of his movies.

haha

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hand me a Smile, cos i need one for my happiness

2009-06-18T00:46:00.009-05:00

after saving a cockroach from the wraths of hani & lis,

i had the tendency to listen to one of my fave fave song,

blur's beetlebum

& like i had a sudden epiphany, i googled them.

bless all the people who believed in Santa Claus,

BLUR IS REFORMED

to think i can see them sing again, & damon albarn writing new brilliant songs,

it sends shivers to my brain!

i love BLUR with a passion.

& yes, i also love British boys. abit ironic that i end up here. hmm...

oh life~

i remember my first 'singer crush' was Damon Albarn, when i first saw the PV 'Boys & Girls'

yep, he's a pretty boy. but thats not the main reason i like him. honest!

come to think of it, that was an early age to have a crush...

-_-"

anyway BLUR's reformed!

oh what estatic chains of endorphins are swirling in my neurotransmitter-filled brains now!

right now, they're only doing shows in the UK.

(damn u expensive-flight-tickets-to-the-UK)

but there's talks about them coming here!!!

yipeeee!

p/s shell, give me my allowance asap plzzz

hovering for choices

2009-06-17T16:07:00.010-05:00

was tagged by doe from my facebook. & as lame as i naturally am, i really really wanna do it.

but afif's & hani's faces keep hovering above my heads saying 'get a life, pajell!'. that hurts a sore spot... lol

so im gonna cheat a little & do it here. heheh

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What you're supposed to do... and please do not spoil the fun. Create a new note, copy and paste this message, delete my answers and type in yours. Then tag 21 good friends and family INCLUDING the person who tagged you. The theory is that you will learn one new thing about each of your friends.

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THREE NAMES I GO BY
1. parrot
2. pajell
3. parallel

-but normally just fara-

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THREE JOBS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE
1. over-indulged daughter
2. annoying sister
3. undefined friend. haha
-semua ada gaji-

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THREE PLACES I HAVE LIVED
1. miri
2. bintulu
3. labuan.

-all within close proximity to each other. yawn~-

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THREE TV SHOWS THAT I WATCH
1. make me a supermodel
2. chuck
3. the whole game show! dark dark moments. ting ting ting 100 points!

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THREE PLACES HAVE BEEN (with frens)
1. hard rock cafe
2. starbucks
3. mcdonalds =p

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THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1. dallas!
2. las vegas
3. italy! beautiful italy!
-& not forgetting japan! my japanophile still not cured yet...

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THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS
1. bak kut teh!!!
2. anything iced
3. ice cream. oh wait... it's the same as number 2

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THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO
1. fall semester (oh M G im such a geek)
2. dallas
3. swimming. mb will, mb not. but oh well

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THREE PETS THAT YOU HAVE OWNED
1. sunekosuri. kitten
2. neji. kitten
3. hitler. kitten

-aiyah all kitten la. no need to bother-

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THREE FRIENDS WHO WILL REPLY
1. i
2. onestly

3. dunno

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THREE FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS
1. hyde cum l'arc~en~ciel!
2. one ok rock
3.blur

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THREE FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH
1. american football
2. basketball
3. baseball

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THREE FAVORITE DRINKS
1. any iced drink
2. pink lemonade
3. ribena sprite

-see, all iced-

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im gonna TAG

hani
kara
afiq

have fun!

hahaha

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happy drinker.

2009-06-16T20:03:00.010-05:00

well, not so. as much as i am tempted to indulge in any of the light-head inducer liquids, i cant legally. apparently, in the states we have to 21 & above to drink.

not that that's a problem anyway.

but i am now addicted to kool-aid. ah, another american franchise that has come to fatten me up.

all the big fuss about 'kool-aid drinkers' as a racist term, i dont see whats the deal with that. i mean, i drink kool-aid, you drink kool-aid, britney spears drink kool-aid, obama drinks kool-aid. nothing wrong with that~

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& after a few months being here, i beg to differ on people's general perception that Americans are racist. in fact, they're afraid of it. i mean, it's such a joy to see Americans so out-spoken & stuff, but when it comes to issues of racism they instantly shut up. no man, no worries.

[the most racist people you can ever find, are in fact asians.]

it's true! the only case of racism i can see around here are from the malaysian buddies that i hang out with. the only thing is we dont get creditted for it. i can look at a person and stereotype him/her instantly. look at ibans, i think sumpit & headhunting (mind you, im iban), i look at chinese, i think math & well, the buff ones made me think of kung-fu. looking at indians, i picture couples running around the trees & singing 30-minutes love songs. that is racism. and apparently ,that's just such an asian thing.

no, im not saying it's good. it's bad. but it's worse that Americans get called racist by other people who are so much more racist than them.

^^^

by the way, i had to honestly say, i was amused by some of the stereotypes that americans have on asians.

asians are, as some ignorant people say, only composed of the oriental community- mainly chinese, japanese, koreans, mongolians etc- and people like me, are undefined.

thankfully, i dont really care about that. haha

asians are also said to be Bad Drivers. well, obviously, THAT IS SO TRUE!

let me tell you the difference between american and asian drivers.

americans STOP at stop signs. asians merely STARE at the stop sign. (okay, pun to the' Stop and Stare' song)

americans smile at pedestrians who have to cross the road. asians curse at the pedestrians.

rushing americans still stop for pedestrians. rushing asians swerve their car to avoid the pedestrians & disrupt the traffic.

most amusing, however was what azelli said to me.

'to the americans, yellow light means go slowly & stop.

to the asians, yellow light means Go GO As Fast As You Can!"

and you, asians, still want to refute the fact we are bad drivers?

where does mat rempits come from? asia jugak.

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to note, one day i was hanging around with my friends. & one of this guy had a bad experience with this asian driver, so out of rage he said 'stupid asian'. then he realized his blunder, so he said 'not malaysians!'.

i find that funny, so i pretended to be annoyed & retorted 'what do i look like to you? indian?'

only to realize, duh, india is in Asia.

stupid asian, me.

haha

dont worry, he did feel better though, when i said 'ah you all white boys look the same to me.'

see, there, me being racist again.

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hoedown to the ho

2009-06-14T22:30:00.004-05:00

recap.

had an urge to do my "business" in the toilet.

ran to the toilet, then i ran back to the room to grab my phone.

lis "what, you wanna listen to music?"

me "no."

"wanna play games."

lis laughed.

me "bored ba..."

the killer

lis said "it's not supposed to be interesting..."

haha. well~

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hot deals these vampires are

2009-06-14T20:24:00.012-05:00

referring to former post, i am now disturbed by the fact, why are vampires so damn cool?!

my top 7 favourite vampires

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7. Viktor

(Bill Nighy's Underworld)

~always thought nighy's effing cool. he has that ancient-vampire look~

6. Selena

(Kate Beckinsale's Underworld)

-she is hawt. she made me think i was gay-

5. Edward Cullen

(Robert Pattison's Twilight saga)

~yeah. he's number 5. i love him & all, but a wee bit too sissy. lol~

4. Loius de Pointe du Lac

(Brad Pitt's Interview of the Vampire)

-saying this is enough. brad pitttt *drops in own drools*-

3. blade

(Wesley Snipes's Blade)

~ i know. he's half-vampire. but he kicks immortal asses with his kungfu hoohaas. dude!-

2. Lestat de Lioncourt

(Tom Cruise's Interview with the Vampire)

(Stuart Townsend's Queen of the Damned)

~i cant choose. they're both so good at epitomizing the seductive, callous, lustful creature of the night. that is Lestat~

& who can beat the god-awesome Lestat for the crown of coolest vampire ever?

*the ultimate vampire*

1. Count von Count

(Sesame Street)

yeah. he's a vampire. & he teaches kids how to count!

how effing cool is that!

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haunted by the blood of you

2009-06-14T19:57:00.004-05:00

"you see i cannot be forsaken,

because i am not the only one..."

after countless efforts of procrastinating at doing my work (that includes making fun of George Washington & the French-Indian War), i finally decided to watch one of my all-time favourite movie, Queen of the Damned.

I have no idea why i like the movie so damn much. It is not the best, I admit it, & tom cruise's version of lestat is unbeatable! (the only reason why the word 'tom-cruise' still exists in my dictionary now)

however the soundtrack is haunting. like vampire blood seeping through your veins, urgh. my favourite is 'cold' by static-x. especially love it when the song came out while lestat was crawling up the wall. oh so hot.

remind me again why vampires are so in.

not because of robert pattison.

Home that our feet may leave...

2009-06-13T18:09:00.007-05:00

... but not our hearts.

-Oliver Wendell Holmes

anyway, today, i found a new form of interest.

*house hunting*

we went house-hunting for faisal.

one thing so cool about petronas scholarship is that petronas pays for their accomodation. so they can pick whatever house they want. arrgh. whereas shell (well, us as far as it concerns) dont have that lovely privilege.

we went to a few places like Aggie Station, The District. My fave was The Enclave bcause it's so pretty. & close to HEB. lol

it was so much fun looking at the houses. & the swimming pools. & gyms. & game rooms. & argh argh argh

*spoiled for words*

however, when talking about a perfect home. what would i define a perfect home? hmmm

i'd probably prefer apartments than actual houses.
the higher, the better. with big big windows.
i'd definitely want paintings on the wall. framed or actually painted on the wall.
i would like my house to be unique. not normal cliches, like au-naturale or couture houses. i want it to be as ME as can be.
especially, i want white lights. not those yellow fancy lights. they're so annoying.
plants in the house, too will be nice.
i love a clustered house. space & more space so not my thing. i love to snuggle. haha.
pets. like fishes. i would prefer a cat. or a dog. but it'll be nicer for if i have a yard.
most importantly, stacked with BOOKS!!

a place stacked with books that i love. that is my personal home :)

LOL while we were trying to exit The Enclave, they had this automatic door where it opens when you drive near it. & doug drove near it, but it wont open! & there were a few cars behind us. so doug reversed. the car behind us drove to the gate, & walaa it opened! the drivers were smirking & stuff, we were so embarassed!!! urgh~

racist gate. lol

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throwing rolls of movies ...

2009-06-13T02:12:00.002-05:00

... into the pits of the abyss. if i could.

just watched mulan & the beach in a single marathon.

& the last king of scotland & the hunchback of notre dame last wednesday.

*eff* these movie marathons! im so tired of it all.

it comes to the point i relate everything to movies.

& right now, i can only hear my brain whisper something slowly to my consciousness...

...before it screams

"GET A LIFE"

by the way, have you watched 'The Hangover' yet??

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the kiasu story

2009-06-13T02:05:00.003-05:00

well, let me tell you about my history class just now.

we just had our exam on wednesday, so just now we got our test paper back. the lecturer was saying, 'if you want to come to my office so you can look to your papers, you are free to do so. in case i marked things wrongly..' or something.

i was like "kiasu juwak!". & lis who was sitting in the middle of hani & me was laughing. because apparently while i was saying "kiasu juwak", hani was in the middle of planning to go the lecturer's office. lol

& lis then added, 'sapa dapat 100 markah ya nang kiasu giler laa..'. & guess who got 100? lis juak. hahah.

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tempest of boredom

2009-06-10T23:45:00.001-05:00

i just wanna blog. but i dont know what to say. nor do i want to say anything.

then why am i blogging right now?

screw you!

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the last king of arrgh-no-more-torture

2009-06-10T23:27:00.004-05:00

as in i just watched 'the last king of scotland'.

i really liked it. even though i screamed around the end of the movie just for the heck of it.

no im lying. it's so horribly violent! arrgh!!

but still it's a real good movie.

& not just because james mcavoy is in it. with his sexy scottish accent.

RawR!

and a doctor to boot!

i like the way he came to Uganda with such a naive & light motive ('have fun & help at the same time'). through circumstances, he was dragged into the corrupt side of African politics, namely his good friend newly-elected President Amin. He continued trying to help all he can, but found out that the problems he sees around him are just too big a responsiblity.

a bad bad review. im bad at this.

but it's a really refined movie, made you think, & inspire you to change something in this world.

just dont eat while watching.

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twitter and twat

2009-06-10T23:12:00.006-05:00

"Greed is a bottomless pit which exhausts the person in an endless effort to satisfy the need without ever reaching satisfaction.”

-Erich Fromm

which is exactly what i am enduring right now.

Firstly, yeah yeah! i bought my ticket to the XXX concert.

(i wont say who yet, it's BAD luck)

Secondly, i am still comtemplating on whether i can go to VAMPs concert!

I am hanging out with no money, no transport, no one to go with & no immunity to H1N1. lol

one thing i know for sure tho' is

I really really really really really wannnna go!!

hyde~........

please pray for me!

i have thousands of crushes. but not one comes close to my eternal-forever-and-ever husband.

HYDE

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tito to random

2009-06-07T22:48:00.003-05:00

" Lover, can you help me?

I'm a child lost in the woods.

A black heart pollutes me

And i think "

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"thou art to me a delicious torment"

2009-06-07T22:09:00.008-05:00

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

brandon boyd

* afif! you better come back here by august! never ever miss incubus!*

+_+

"musqua"

2009-06-07T21:15:00.005-05:00

meaning RED in native Algonquian Language.

which includes the Pamunkey tribe.

which is lead by Indian Chief Powhatan

who is the father of Pocahontas

who, according to Disney, fell in love with John Smith

who was among the first settlers in the Jamestown colony

which was learnt in American History

which made me eventually watch the cartoon Pocahontas

that made me totally an emotional wreck rite now!!!

the last time i watched Pocahontas was when i was a kid. so i didnt expect, when i watched it this time, the movie to be so beautifully enchanting.

especially moments when pocahontas and john smith spend their time knowing each other.

arent they so cute here

so saaaaad that american history totally ruins the movie.

i cant believe she abandoned john smith for john rolfe!

hmmmphh!

my... i cant get carried away.

gotta study the real stuff now...

sigh~

+_+

my bloody stomach!

2009-06-07T14:54:00.003-05:00

exactly what it is!

how do i stop my bloody stomach from grumbling?!

"it grumbles when im hungry, it grumbles when im asleep

it grumbles in tones of low and even in the deep,

i ate to stop the grumbling and even over-ate

but what to do, oh what to do my class will start at eight."

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googled about the cause for stomach grumbling. & guess what's the 1st result? 'Early Pregnancy symptoms'.

kuso

but well, a few causes

gas in stomach
chewing gum, which fools the stomach into thinking there is food to be digested
pregnancy (ahah, not happening)

it annoys me because my stomach's really really loud!!!

like there's a war in my stomach with people using atomic bombs and japanese shouting "banzai! banzai!"

one time it grumbles so loud in an exam hall my friend next to me stared at my stomach & shook his head...

aaargh!

& dismiss the whole 'hungry' theory. my stomach grumbles even after i just ate a whole meal.

damn stomach!

+_+

minute words

2009-06-06T20:12:00.007-05:00

the city i love

is a city

bound by sunsets

and clear skies

the city i adore

is a city

sheltered by tall buildings

and

monstrous monuments

the city i cherish

is a city

satiated by green luscious

trees and

humble flowers

but not so much as i love

the city

where you hold my hand and we

walk side by side.

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mother me

2009-06-06T20:03:00.000-05:00

i need someone to whine to ...

"maliferous to the health of heart"

2009-06-05T19:48:00.006-05:00

says i.

of what?

who knows.

even giants and noble men could not stand it,

nor could i

when pride and disposition are challenged

by mere words.

there are but many kinds of

words

words that shook the mountains

that staggered the waves

that moved the world.

yours is not so.

there is no means of words

if it does not alter

even a single atom in the universe.

there is no means of words

if it does not challenge

a destiny that has been predicted

yours are of this.

words are mere words

if your purposes are mere purposes

do not bother to change a world

if even a syllable that

rolls in your sweet tongue

is a mere

disappointment

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mono - hightlites

2009-06-03T22:19:00.008-05:00

started my summer classes afew days ago. yay. finally i had a purpose in life.

SUMMER IS HERE

summer in texas is HOT HOT HOT. only i found out later that it is still just the beginning of summer in june.

die laaa...

summer classes were fun. i tagged along to alissa's PHYS's & hani's MATH lectures.

it was pretty awkward though, when saslow asked everyone in class to ask each other's names, so we dont study alone. so to say. & a guy asked me my name, & i had to say, sorry im not in this class...

WHO goes to a physics class which they are not enrolled to?

me, apparently. socially awkward.

but my fave class was American History (for now). cos there were alot of highlites. yay

first day, we learnt about native american peoples & their ancient civilization. the lecturer was showing pics of her tour to this Casa Something in Arizona (if im not mistaken -_-) about this Hohokam tribe. It was pretty err.. because she showed a pic of a crater-like ground & she said that people assumed that it's a football field. seriously, how do you know??? it's a crater, for Elmo's sake! & there were also pictures of poles which the lecturer said are equivalent to the Stonehenge. seriously?! it looks more like a telephone pole to me. for all i know, the Hohokams' favourite pastime is to phone each other all the time "hey, apa keja kitak ya?"

like rite? they may already invented the frickking iphones for all we know!

a relic found in the archaelogical site

the second class we had, the highlite was when the lecturer was talking about this mysterious Roanoke colony, where the leader went back to England to get more supplies for the colony and left his daughter & granddaughter behind. When he came back to the colony, he found that all the people in the colony vanished. then instead of finding them, he ran back to England. i was like "what?! go back laa! find your anak". i ddint realize i was saying it loudly, until alissa noted it. haha.

the third class, it came to pocahontas! well, about Jamestown colony, & one of the prominent leaders in the colony was named John Smith. i was excited. & there really was a red-indian chief's daughter named Pocahontas. However i learnt a new thing today.

Pocahontas was not in a relationship with John Smith!!

lies all lies

That was a lie concocted by Disney!

Not true!

My whole childhood belief was a lie!

lol

+_+

masalah besar, iaitu saya tidak pandai bercakap

2009-05-29T23:45:00.005-05:00

... or translated in normal english, 'i shuld DIE for having such horrible social skills!'.

***

im so efffing bad at talking to people, especially guys. like in mtv, where the cool guys groom those nerdy guys with zero social skills to become the cool guys like themselves, I AM THAT SOCIALLY-IMPAIRED GUY!

i so need this!

hani, lis,

please guide me to the right path called

'Proper Talking Skills Highway'

instead of the

'Awkward Blabbing Talk Road'

that i am doomed to take!

moderatio

2009-05-29T15:58:00.000-05:00

feels like dying today ...

moonwalking to culinary excellence ;p

2009-05-29T00:58:00.005-05:00

was in a foul foul mood just now.
im in need for more social activities! cant wait to go to class & be all "hey y'all!!!"

anyway was reminiscing about adam lambert. who did not win american idol. i wanted to write about it the minute the result was announced, but i could not due to extreme temptation of using a variety of curse words. painful, painful topic.

what my face looks like as im staring at this laptop

(minus the fact i am not a man)

he deserves to win. full stop.

A Change is Gonna Come

Feeling Good

Mad World

he deserves to win goddamit.

after that watched summore michael jackson. & i found out i still adore MJ. even though i do grin at his nose. cant help it.

also, one time i had to submit my engineering homework for my team, & i wrote my friend's name as Michael Jackson instead of Michael Johnson. haha.

but i changed it in time. no worries.

i cooked by myself too just now. im so PROUD of myself.

for normal people, cooking fried egg & green beans is pfffft easy.

for watashi, it's Amazing, Fabuloso, Grandiose!

yeah,

I'm Feeling Goooooood~

+_+

my sweet baby

2009-05-28T04:54:00.008-05:00

My Sweet Baby - ONE OK ROCK

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my baby, sweet baby
I see you smiling when I close my eyes
’cause I miss you, I need you right now

"tadaima" moroku ni ienakute gomen ne
never knew I’d make you feel lonely
kuchiguse no "tsukareta" mo boku wa iisugi dane…
kaeri wo matsu hou ga tsurai no ni…

and we’re back to screaming
sasai na koto de mata
can’t stop the rain
so tagai ni yuzurazu ni kigatsukeba
together again
’cause only you can drive me crazy

my baby, sweet baby oh
itsumo sunao ni dekinai boku wo
anata wa yasashiku tsutsunde kureru yuiitsu no hito dayo

do you believe in destiny
’cause I can’t deny, baby you and I
naze bokura ga koko ni iru no ka?

deau beki futari ga deatta to shitara bokura
donna konnan mo koereru ne?

tsugou yoku kangaete
mata kimi wo komarasete
sonna fuu ni kyou mo mata boku wa kimi ni amaesugi
’cause only I can drive you crazy

my baby, sweet baby tte kore kara mo saki isshou kimi ni
iitai!! tte boku wa kokoro karasou omou ndayo

naa baby, please tell me? oh
kotoba janakute ii kara
tada tonari de hohoen de kurereba sore dake de ii kara sa!!

the world’s in a hurry
bokura no jikan wa tomete okou
there’s nothing to worry
toki wa bokura wo tsuresare wa shinai yo

**********

one of my favourite songs

such a beautiful song.

& one ok rock, of course, RAWKS!

LOL

2009-05-28T01:05:00.005-05:00

was dl-ing manga, then suddenly skipping to youtube for reason i cant remember.

then i watched this new video 'adventures of Goku' from mychonny.

http://www.youtube.com/user/mychonny

Chonny whom i absolutely adore! cos he's so funny!

in a very impudent & reckless way. and he's funny! =D

i love parodies, & he makes 'em real funny!

okay, im using too much of the word 'funny'... -.-

but he is Funny!

this guy here, chonny, is an australian & pretty much famous in the youtube circle, for his tongue-in-cheek humour (especially about asians).

like when he was commenting korean movies, he was like "what's the deal with koreans & rain? how come they always catch a cold after exposed to rain? ... are you allergic to rain? ... are you some kind of pokemon, like firemon?!"

what the..?! pokemon? tahahaha.

he's like a kid.

(ack, now i remember why i clicked to youtube in the 1st place. justin timberlake.)

+_+

lacking lustre in every inch

2009-05-26T21:36:00.010-05:00

lis & i walked to mcdonalds just now.

she wasof few words

so she forced me to talk. i didnt expect

to struggle, but i did.

minutes of stuttering words that were never voiced,

felt like decades to me.

i couldnt talk about anything at all.

is it me? or is it lis?

why am i not able to talk?

i'm used to this. to being silent. to not talk. not say what i think.

does it make me boring? lis asked "dont you want to be remembered?

u have to talk."

& yeah, thats what i have been complaining about.

i am never remembered.

then lis said that i wasnt ready yet.

that im still not mature yet.

i find it upsetting

there's no ground to compare ourselves with

but i know she's right.

i havent grown up at all.

i've always been that little girl,

sheltered by everyone

sheltered by my mind & thoughts

sheltered by the very perception of others

i have to change. i tell myself everyday.

& i have to keep telling myself every day

"grow up, little girl".

+_+

ludicrous is another word for STUPID

2009-05-26T17:04:00.006-05:00

woke up in the afternoon. wish i didnt wake up at all.

'cause rite after i woke up, i ate & ate & then decided to watch 'wanted' just cause i love james mcavoy.

watched a few of his movies [atonement, penelope] which deepens my infatuation for this lovely piece of work. thank you, mcavoy's mum. thank you, mcavoy's dad.

no thank you though, mcavoy's wife =(

so i wanted to give 'wanted' (no pun intended) a try.

angelina jolie looks really hawt in the poster. & morgan freeman's in it too. so i thought, heck, might not be so bad laa this mvie.

i was wrong.

it was bad

really really bad

really really really really bad

really bad it makes me wanna study my physics instead.

thats bad

but i still love james mcavoy (sorry alissa ;p)

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loxotic gravity

2009-05-26T14:19:00.003-05:00

i fell down yesterday. on the sidewalk beside the highway. when there were a lot of cars passing by.

embarassment.

even the polar bear's embarassed

apart from my pride, lol, i wasnt hurt at all. though i sprained my leg. it annoys me to no ends (!!!) that everytime i fall, i have to sprain my ankles. always. why cant i just scrap my knee or something?!

'cause this makes me miss my dad & mum alot.

when i sprained my ankle, my dad would massage my leg while my mum makes a big fuss about it. then i would beg my dad to cover my leg with bandages so it would look cool. i know, even when i was in Form 5... haha

Mum, Dad, Abang! I miss you so much! Wait for me to come back!!!

+_+

lazy days & movies

2009-05-26T03:32:00.012-05:00

pretty much embarassed to admit it, but i literally spent this whole summer holiday watching movies all the time!

which spells Lazy with a capital L.

anyway, went to the mall yesterday and despite all the clothes shopping, i was unabashedly more excited that i bought 5 books for only $15!!! & proper books. not cincai books! lalalalala sadly no cheap mangas. but forgiven. 'cause nothing cheers me up more than bargain books! haaaah~

books, books and more books

honestly though, im not smitten by the act of reading a book. i just love being with a book. for all i know, the best sleep i ever had was when i was lying with my book.

once i slept in the library in this quiet little spot which i loved so much. well, the nicest nap i ever had. & also the dumbest 'cause i was supposed to study for my physics exam that i was supposed to take a few hours later.

my little aggie sanctuary

anyway after taht, and a couple more things, we decided to watch baby mama & the curious case of benjamin button. yep, another movie marathon.

we laughed for baby mama. but so much more for benjamin button.

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about a successful careerwoman who cant conceive so she opts for a surrogate mum program, turns out the surrogate mum is a psycho child in a woman's body, so to speak.subsequently, they happened to live together, do the pregnancy tutorials stuff together, and try to get along lalala together.

kinda around that line.

baby mama was good. it was funny. and tina fey and amy poehler are really dramatic. which makes it funny. but i was not in my best mood while watching it, so it remains forgettable for me.

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the curious case of benjamin button is however, yes, curious. curious as to why we stuck on watching it. curious as to why we didnt get tons of wrinkles from watching that 3-hour movie.

curious, yes, curious indeed.

it's practically about this clockmaker who has a wife and a perfect son, who gets called to the army. then he died in action. the clockmaker, so devastated, made a clock that runs anti clockwise so that "time may run backwards. and those who died in war may come back to their home and live a proper life."

suddenly jump to a baby who looks dang-ugly. the dad couldnt stand the sight of it and left it in front of an old age home. there, that baby was named benjamin and grew up looking really old. there, he also met a pretty young girl who we already know, duh, he's gonna fall in love with. so the story practically goes with him living his life and chasing that pretty girl he loved so much, all the while looking younger. til at last, he died as a young baby.

all of this was told with the style of this lady reading an old diary of benjamin button to an old lady (in the hospital throughout the whole movie), who turns out to be the pretty girl whom benjamin loved, and the lady who read it their daughter.

well, it would have been a pretty unique story to me had i not watched it with friends who are pro bullshitting. & damn they were good.

when the part where the old lady reveals to her daughter that benjamin was her dad, and my friend said, the old lady's gonna say "your father is one of the babies outside there in the pediatric ward!!!".

we were LOL-ing all over!

then another scene where the daughter, shocked, said that she doesnt want to read the book anymore, but wants to know where her father is, this same friend said "awww just read the ending of the diary...". LOL

it's alrite laa if you dont expect too much from the movie.

& oh ya, it's really nice to see a young brad pitt. ;)

watch at your own perils, (or wrinkles i might say)

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then today i watched a movie starring the other half of the jolie-pitt partnership, which is entitled Changeling.

very disturbing, to say the very least. mostly 'cause it's graphic and detailed. & it's based on a true story. not too good.

about a woman, Christine Collins who found her son Walter missing after she went back from work one day. Seeking help from the LAPD force, she was finally relieved when they found her boy only to realise that the boy given to her was not her own son.

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damn depressing!

christine's pains, i can feel it so much it makes me dont want to have kids at all. tsk tsk

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come to think of it,

these continuous movie marathons are also very very very depressing.

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lose the right stuff, gain the good stuff

2009-05-24T05:05:00.002-05:00

HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!

HEY YOU!

DONT EAT ALL THE TIME!

DONT SLEEP ALL THE TIME!

"lolita"

2009-05-24T03:42:00.010-05:00

by Vladimir Nabokov

Certainly my highlight for today is when i finally manage to complete the readings of this famous novel.

Being an obscene fan of anything japanese, i eventually came across the Gothic-Lolita fashion so prominently featured in the country itself. But what is Lolita? Wikipedia helped alot here.

I found out that Lolita is a novel about an adult man's unhealthy obsession and love for a young 12 year-old girl. In fact, it is so famous that the word 'Lolita' is now a general term for young sexually-matured girls. Much like Colgate is to toothpaste,

It sounds sick, but I still wanted to read it for own's sake.

I find it, to my surprise, a very romantic and sad reading. It has very subtle sexual connotations, thank you very much, and concentrates more on the feelings and thoughts of the protagonists.

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The novel is seen from a first-view perspective of an european man named Humbert Humbert *...*, who had acquired a silent longing for pretty young girls whom he called nymphets, after the failure to copulate with his childhood sweetheart Annabel. Venturing to the States, by a twist of fate, he came to live with a female lodger Charlotte Haze and her nymphet daughter Dolores, whom he fell in love at first sight with. Dolores, affectionately named Lolita by Humbert, was such an object of extreme desire and love for the man, that he married Charlotte just to have dear Lolita closer. Soon came the day Charlotte found out about his unhealthy affections for her daughter only to have met an untimely death in an accident. Humbert then became a sole guardian to Lolita and were eventually lovers due to Lolita's curiosity and willingness to engage in such relationship. Even though he had to deal with Lolita's childish demands, furious tempers and complaints for an ordinary life, Humbert was blissful with this lifestyle which lasted until she was 14 years old. And one day, Lolita ran away. Humbert lived in misery for years awaiting for her return. As soon as he gave up, his precious daughter sent a letter telling of her marriage, pregnancy and urgernt need for money. The father came, intending to murder her for betraying him, but could not for he love her so. He begged her to come back but she refused. The story ends when the sad and longing Humbert Humbert was sent to a mentai institution after killing the man who took Lolita away from him.

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Well, it may not be accurate, after all i just finished it. but if there's anything wrong i hope someone corrects me. Nabokov is indeed a very descriptive writer and I find this novel a hard read. But it was a very beautiful read.

Nabokov describes well the extent of fury and love that Humbert had for Lolita.

Among my favourite line was when Humbert Humbert asked Lolita to come back to him and she adamantly said that if she would, she would only run away, and with the same person whom she had loved

"He broke my heart. You (referring to Humbert) merely broke my life."

kerosene lamp for the midnight marathon

2009-05-24T03:29:00.004-05:00

after such such such a lazy saturday,

we went for a brisk walk to great wall of china. a chinese buffet =, contrary to your belief. & nothing stands to interest there so skip it.

decided to hava midnight movie marathon. LAME, you scream? yes it is. but we watched

memento === which i thought was really good
wall-e === adorably cute
seven pounds === brings life into perspective. & yes, a very good movie

keeping the curious case of benjamin button for tomorrow.

-planning to watch crazy amounts of movies during this summer. i'm not really fond of the feeling you get when everyone around you incredulously said "what?! you've never watched this movie? what era did u live in?"-

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keeping up with what should be kept

2009-05-23T01:35:00.003-05:00

just watched 'angels & demons'. beautiful movie. *will write about it more later*. & i have a quiet infatuation for ewan mcgregor. half expected him to pull out his lightsaber.

'may be the force be with you'

^now i have to read 'da vinci code' and 'angels & demons' by dan brown.^

^now i have to read about the history of Roman Catholic & Christianity^

^now i have to research on the beautiful monuments in Italy^

^now, i have to uuurgh read about antimatter and etc etc^

^effing yeah, now i HAVE to go Italy^

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just have our usual long random chats, me hani lis, about ..... hmm .... which eventually leads to conflicts in the middle-east

^now i have to read up about these^

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i love moments when i have to eat my own words. *read last post*

i am a KID. i know nothing of the world.

i hate being the "errr..." and "umm..." in a conversation.

let's start changing this.

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kaleidoscopic

2009-05-22T14:42:00.007-05:00

i dislike it when people call me a dreamer or an idealist just for what i say or do.

if i say "everything is possible" or "when there's a will, there's a way", does that instantly mean im a idealist? i sound silly, but does it mean im a child tucked in a little crib of my own? i fear not.

i may be of less experience than about 99% of the worldwide population. but who daresay that i have not seen anything in my 18 years of life? by dismissing my words, deny my 18 years of bloom. but be so a brainless twat.

i am just bluntly optimistic. i've seen things happen that are supposed to be impossible and yet come true. i know wishing for things do not stay in dreams only, it can also appear in reality. now, is that not realistic? when i have seen the sun-lit meadow and not the gloomy alley as you have been accustomed to? maybe i did not tread my foot on your alley, and you have not on my meadow. is my experience still invaluable compared to yours?

true, you can be pessimistic at times. and whine. but isnt being optimistic lovelier? it's like a kaleidoscope of the mind. being optimistic brews beautfiul images in the mind from ordinary thoughts and sentiments. it's my choice to be optimistic but a realist. than be a depressingly pessimistic realist.

dont push off what i said as mere child's talk. yes, i may be the child in this crooked connection. but who are you to judge the worth of my words without a thought?

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"kimi wa petto"

2009-05-22T04:57:00.014-05:00

"You're My Pet"

*An elite woman superior in height, education and career, Iwaya Sumire (played by Koyuki), has been dumped by her fiancee (who said he felt inadequate around her) and demoted from her post (for roughly rejecting her superior's sexual advance). Feeling frustrated, she went back home to find an injured teenage boy (Matsumoto Jun) in a box in front of her apartment. Iwaya dragged the box to her house and nursed the boy to health. However after the boy was well, he refused to leave the house, leaving Isaya jokingly saying "If you want to live here, you have to be my pet.", hoping he will be discouraged.

Instead, the boy said "Okay."

Thus began the crazy life of Iwaya with her human pet, which she named Momo.*

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I looooooove this drama.

One, it's the live-action drama of a very cool josei manga 'Tramps like Us' by Yayoi Ogawa

Two, it's so cute.... lol

Three, there's some really heart-warming scenes (like the bath scenes, hugging pet scenes)

Four, it makes me want to have a dog. or a human pet dog.

Five, MATSUMOTO JUN!

Matsumoto Jun makes every mortal girl fall for him in Gokusen, Bambino and of course, Hana Yori Dango!

~ what to do... im a girl ;p ~

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"kimi ni todoke"

2009-05-22T04:48:00.004-05:00

-Karuho Shiina-

i got stuck reading this. when i was a few inches from my bed. sleepy.

anything that can prevent me from sleeping is, i tell you, a very big deal. tahaha

anyway this manga, also known as 'Reaching You' is such a cute cute story. it ranks with 'koukou debut' and 'lovely complex', in my opinion. not too sugary & annoyingly impossible, just a simple cute shoujo.

*kimi ni todoke is about kuronema sawako, a quiet girl with long black hair & depressing appearance, who is feared by people due to scary rumours about her (not forgetting her depressing appearance). her nickname is sadako (please tell me you've heard of that name). even though she is kind and thoughtful and does not have the ability to sense ghost (as the rumours said), nobody dared to talk to her... until the popular boy kazehaya shouta befriended her.*

sleep deprived

2009-05-22T02:00:00.003-05:00

mooooooooooou....

i was planning to have a good nite sleep. but now it's already 4.40 am & im still not asleep. why?

cos i spent one whole day watching 'kimi wa petto' staring koyuki & matsumoto jun (rawr!)

cos i got caught up reading shoujo manga 'kimi ni todoke' aka 'reaching you' by mangaka karuho shiina

such a happy happy day for me.

my idea of a perfect day.

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"show me the money!!!"

2009-05-20T15:29:00.004-05:00

- tom cruise for 'jerry maguire'. one of my fave movie moments.

give me my allowance! give me my allowance! give me my allowance!

im so tempted to call PCT & tell her "we're dying from swine flu. if we dont get any money, we cant pay the hospital bills... cough cough..."

lots of lame jokes for a day.

solemnity has no gain

2009-05-20T14:18:00.002-05:00

american idol 8 finale is dawning upon us now.

adam lambert kicks ass, man!

in the first part

lambert sang 'mad world' with a vampiristic touch, which i thought was bloody cool.

allen sang 'aint no sunshine' which was also amazing with his piano & sultry voice.

round winner = allen

in the 2nd part,

lambert sang 'change is gonna come'. amaaaaaaaaaazing! really, when he pulled that big voice of his, everyone dies!

allen sang 'whats going on' by marvin gaye. it's his element, & bak kat simon cowell 'too laidback for this stage of competition'

round winner = 1 million percent lambert

in the final part,

both have to sing a newly-composed song by kara diogardi, 'no boundaries'.

the song so obviously fits only allen's vocal. (& even then, allen's vocal limit is too low for that song)

lambert sang it pretty well, but it's just not his element bhaaa~ not fair dowh~

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who will win american idol & be in the same rank as my own david cook? ;p

effing hope it's adam lambert!!!

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summer sucks

2009-05-20T03:56:00.007-05:00

especially texan summer.

& i'm stuck here at college station. huraay huraay!

the day i travel out of here is the day i... well, get out of texas.

but one thing that cheers me greatly these few days *apart from the hope that the boys will get quarantined in klia* is ....

-drumroll please-

"ADAM LAMBERT"

Lambert is one of the two finalist for the 8th season of American Idol. While the other, Kris Allen, is known for his down-to-earth, humble, (sleepy) performance, Lambert rawksss! His vocal is of the 70s rock & roll era, boundless range he has, & the flamboyance of his performance blew me off my skirt! literally~

Well, of course when i first saw him, my physical-judgemental brain screamed "aiseh, this mamat look so gay, sound so gay..."

but once i heard him singing, i was like "What?! he's gay?!! nooooo..."

*his controversial pics* - warning, homophobics -

dang it~

& apparently, when asked about a female co-star he says, “I’ve gotten to kiss those lips, and although it’s not my preference,” and he pauses so the audience can chuckle.

isnt that cute? tahahahaha~

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silly acronyms

2009-05-20T02:13:00.004-05:00

we were talking just now, alissa, hani & me.

damn damning that i failed my physics. for my online homeworks which were below 70%, my wonderful professor has given me a beautiful F. how am i gonna answer to my sponsor, dui..

so alissa said hey, american grading's different bah.. A is Awesome, B is Best, D is Dang-it, F is Fantastic! & C is Ceebye. lol. & yeah, american grading has no E.

hooray to the day i tell my sponsor i got Best & Fantastic grades!

anyway, we were laughing like crack again when hani said *randomly* brown offers bachelor in engineering. & alissa spelt the acronym, B eng, Bachelor of engineering. B E N G. & i was like, B.e.n.g? Beng? hahah you come back to malaysia & got a beng?

tahahahah such childish joy.

well in tamu, u get a Bachelor of Science for engineering instead. BS. bull shit u said? well said!

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"start"

2009-05-20T02:12:00.000-05:00

my blog starts here. :)